《文龙日记》

心情指数：4/10

低落的一天

原本没怎样

在文8的时候
还蛮快乐的

大家都蛮开心地上课

至少我觉得

他们换位了（虽然不是主要原因）
但是就比较好

而且一个假期回来
大家好像都上进了不少

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可是到了最后一节

我知道

我也sense到有东西在酝酿了

好无力

慧婷的一句：文龙，等下可以接我们15分钟吗？我们想解决一些事情

我如果说：我感觉的到

他们会信吗？？

我真的愿意花一节课给他们真的

但还是学会不认真地说了一句：但是我有个条件！就是借我tissue，我要大便！！哈哈哈

以我认为的幽默，化解尴尬的局面

他们说着说着

哭了

自己也泪打滚

我知道那种付出很多
但是却默默承受很多的感觉

我知道那种感觉

我也知道都是沟通的问题

我也很想帮

如果是以前的我
应该会不顾一切地
想尽办法吧

但是

累了....
要在这里待
学会了不是像烟火一样灿烂短暂
而是学会了应该像火炭那样
持续发热

不是吗？？

每件事情都去参与
包括解决

心会累

会无法负荷

会无法继续

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下午
到pizza hut

跟着善莹，云今，yoga，依林和乙双还有某某人（不懂名字）
去陪着他们复习

头痛....

偏头痛.......

好久好久都没有的偏头痛.......

原来就是这样的感觉

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我知道淑贞跟我说商学会现在的情况
是对我老实
不是想要我难过
不开心

但是
毕竟自己付出过
快乐的时光也曾经有过

自己还是会心痛一下

当场的第一个念头是：
怎么自己一直做着跟自己理念相反的事情？？
为什么？？
我想要做到的是，换了顾问都还是可以持续的向心力
而现在呢？？？
包括我教的很多班
我真的尽量不去太影响了....
今年都也一直fufit....
做莫还是？？

第二个念头：
我适合当老师吗？？应该给自己一段时间休息了吗？
太放感情，不好吧？

再加上偏头痛
我几乎当场就愣在那边了

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Your fingertips across my skin
The palm trees swaying in the wind
Images

You sang me Spanish lullabies
The sweetest sadness in your eyes
Clever trick

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

We walked along a crowded street
You took my hand and danced with me
Images

And when you left you kissed my lips
You told me you'd never ever forget these images, no

I never want to see you unhappy
I thought you'd want the same for me

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

I cannot go to the ocean
I cannot drive the streets at night
I cannot wake up in the morning
Without you on my mind
So you're gone and I'm haunted
And I bet you are just fine
Did I make it that easy
To walk right in and out of my life?

Goodbye, my almost lover
Goodbye, my hopeless dream
I'm trying not to think about you
Can't you just let me be?
So long, my luckless romance
My back is turned on you
I should've known you'd bring me heartache
Almost lovers always do

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