《文龙日记》

心情指数：4/10

不开心

很多事绑着自己的思绪

不是乱

只是自己的方向
好像又需要改变

每一次的观念改变
都越来越需要花越来越长的时间

观念一个一个绑着
比较难解开

一改变好像就要动完全部

就越绑越紧

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只是之前细心过

后来才学会不那么细心

不care那么多

才不会那么辛苦

搞到自己患得患失
疑神疑鬼

“有时不知道你为什么一下子沉下来，很压力”
所以选择嘻嘻哈哈
开开玩笑

后来发现
真的这样
很多人很喜欢

现在却....

我又极端了吗？？

那天惠仪和婕敏的话
谈起他那种过头的大喇喇
人家生气了....都不知道弄到人家生气
然后问了：你做莫？
人家说：没事
结果他却真的以为没事
就继续自己的开玩笑继续自己的乐观
好像什么事都没发生过一样

突然觉得这个情节
最近一直一直一直在发生...在我身上

前一两年
我自己不是这样的勒

高中的时候
是这样....

快搞不懂自己了

我记得一句话
“以前的你，如果看到你现在这样，应该很伤心”
当时不以为然
可是现在.....



瞭望台...适合整理思绪

好久好久没有上去
偶尔还是会很怕上去
因为会担心那个想法再出现
但昨天就是上去了...
因为有景正陪着...
不担心

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其实自己还是很没有安全感
不知道自己到底有多重要

吧？

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因为重要
才去努力
去行动

真心觉得女生
生孩子这件事很伟大

我记得以前小凹有开玩笑说过要帮我生
当时还小
虽然知道是开玩笑的
就开心个好几天

当时又跟丽晶靖婷很好
听到我说因为这个玩笑开心好几天
结果她们也开玩笑这样讲...

其实无奈啊

周围的人都喜欢开这种玩笑啊

所以一直没有sense了...晕

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原来那样对我说出来是真的很需要勇气？

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"Because Of You"

[Verse 1:]
Want to, but I can’t help it
I love the way it feels,
It’s got me stuck between my fantasy and what is real
I need it when I want it, I want it when I don’t
Tell myself I’ll stop everyday, knowin’ that I won't

[Bridge:]
I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it

[Chorus:]
And it’s all because of you [3X]
And it’s all because…
Never get enough,
She’s the sweetest drug

[Verse 2:]
Think of it every second
I can't get nothing done,
Only concern is the next time, I’m gonna get me some
Know I should stay away from, cause it's no good for me
I try and try but my obsession wont let me leave

[Bridge:]
I got a problem and I don’t know what to do about it
Even if I did, I don’t know if I would quit but I doubt it
I’m taken by the thought of it, and I know this much is true
Baby, you have become my addiction, I’m so strung out on you
I can barely move but I like it

[Chorus:]
And it’s all because of you (all because of you) [3X]
And it’s all because…
Never get enough,
She’s the sweetest drug

Ain’t no doubt, so strung out [2X]
Over you, over you, over you

Because of you,
And it’s all because of you,
Never get enough
She’s the sweetest drug, she’s the sweetest drug